Reporting back
It’s been twelve days since I wrote on Saturday 13th that I would report back on my experiences “tomorrow”. But not until now have I seemed to reach a point where I could stand back and take a cool look at what has happened.
Not that anything spectacular has happened on the outside. There have been no great developments in my life to be seen. But inside - in the “interior life” - it is as if everything has changed.
I’ve become much more sensitive to the leading of the Holy Spirit. And it has become much easier for me to listen to this leading for quite long periods at a time. But the converse has been, that I have become much more aware of the disastrous consequences when I do not listen to the Holy Spirit. It’s almost as if I were making some beautiful artifact and then, just as I was beginning to get somewhere and it was beginning to take shape, I took a hammer and smashed up everything I had made and had to start again.
But apart from this the Lord has taught me a lot about myself. I have been shown how impulsive I am and how I react to the smallest things - how little I have been in control of my actions in fact. Paradoxically the more I allow my perception of God’s will to control my actions, the more I feel that I am now really myself.


Reader Comments (2)
These are remarkable insights. I love how gently the Holy Spirit holds up the mirror and allows us to see ourselves in a new way. He is so gentle to show us only that which He knows we can absorb and accept.
I haven't liked the things He has shown me about myself, but I really appreciate that He did it as it has prompted growth.
It gives me great Joy to read what it's like for you to discover God from the Catholic perspective. I am a revert to the Church. Having been Protestant for a number of years, I can understand the differences you experience and your joy of discovery.
Keep listening. He is leading you in a marvelous path. Thanks for a great post and for your honesty. God Bless you.
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